From Abilities Magazine – Canada’s
Lifestyle Magazine for people with Disabilities
Summer 2003, Issue 55 - www.abilities.ca
IN PROFILE – BY KAREN MARIE MARZOCCO
Michael Williams-Stark
making faces and Raising Voices
I KNOW THAT people would yell at me all
the time or scream things at me out of cars. I just thought I was
a really popular guy.- Everything is about me."
At the time of his birth in 1955, Michael
Williams-Stark's was considered the worst bilateral cleft lip and
palate case in British Columbia. "Then I realized people were
being mean and I couldn't figure out why. I was just a little kid."
Michael vividly remembers his mother lifting him in her arms and
holding him in front of the medicine cabinet mirror. "She explained
to me why I'm different and pointed things out on my face that were
different from other people's."
Today, Michael is an improv comedian, public
speaker, voice actor and musician who is the subject of the international-award-winning
CBC radio documentary, making faces. The documentary, also featured
on National Public Radio in the U.S., bears the same name as the
registered charity Michael founded to foster life skills through
improvisation for children with facial differences.
Michael describes his own face as a boy
as having a gaping hole where the roof of his mouth and his lips
should have been and a pudding-like mass in the middle for a nose.
He says he learned years later from his sister, Frankie, that the
neighbourhood kids would jeer at him even as a baby. "She would
push me on the playground swing... She told me she learned what
a broken heart was that way."
Michael explains that he never knew anyone
with a facial difference when he was growing up. His early years
were a lonely and isolated existence. "I remember being world
weary and very tired... I started to mistrust people and think what
a monstrous and nasty species they are." Then, the little grade
one boy looked to the TV series The Untouchables for release. "I
used to want to be a hit man - 'cause people didn't mean anything
to me as far as kindness goes. They're cruel to me, so I may as
well make a living out of bumping them off... not a healthy way
for a kid to think!"
His bio quips, "OK, I'm facially disfigured
and vocally distorted... how can I make life even tougher for myself?
I know! I'll become an actor and specialize in voice work and public
speaking!" Michael cheekily refers to himself as a "harelip
for hire." He lays claim to the title, drawing it back from
its negative connotations. He realized the power of words at an
early age, when his audacious comments in grade three upset the
nuns and earned him the strap. "I wreaked all this havoc just.
by saying something. It made me feel very powerful."
Michael credits the Beatles song, "Please
Please Me," with completely changing his world. He first heard
it on the radio in early 1963. "What is that sound? I just
loved it!" The Beatles magic so inspired him, he got a guitar
and a book on chords and taught himself to play. Michael believes
his passion for performing overwhelmed his fear of rejection and
helped him to accept himself for who he was.
Michael explains that all of his perceptions
are shaped by his facial difference. "I don't know how to be
anything but facially disfigured. So if I'm going to be a facially
disfigured singer or actor, well, so be it. What kind of a life
would it be otherwise if I just gave up? Live like a recluse in
a rooming house?" - a fate, Michael says, that is all too common
for many with a facial difference.
After being active in comedy sketches in
junior high and high school, Michael majored in theatre at college.
"Then, like all graduating students, I formed a band."
Michael played the small-town band circuit in rural B.C. and Alberta
in the early 1980s, then moved to Toronto, where he studied improv
at the Second City theatre. He formed 'his own comedy troupe and
took over the Rivoli comedy space offered to him by Scott Thompson
of the Kids in the Hall. During this time, he developed his skills
at mimicry and character voices.
The popular children's series, The Noddy
Shoppe, is just one of Michael's character voice successes. Originally
asked to audition for four of the animated character voices, Michael
sent a tape to the New York casting office featuring the conversations
of 30 different ." characters. "Never just do what they
ask you to do. Always go for more," he says. As a result, not
only was he the first voice cast for the show, but he got the parts
for all six of the main Noddy Shoppe characters. "It's all
the sweeter because every voiceover guy in Toronto probably tried
out for that show."
Other animated series under Michael's belt
are Beetlejuice, Rupert Bear, Little Shop of Horrors and the lead
character in Super Mario Bros. And in an odd twist on his boyhood
yearning to be a hit man, Michael voices the part of a villain on
a Sony PlayStation 2 game. "Children all over North America
are killing me now," he laughs. "Lovely thought."
Michael has endured over a dozen reconstructive
facial surgeries in his life- time. His first three months on earth
were spent in hospital, "which explains my nurse fetish,"
he grins. "My sister said when they brought me home I was always
looking above their heads... then they realized I was looking for
the nurse's cap!" Today, Michael says he looks like Jesus might
after losing a prizefight. "I don't look so much facially disfigured
now... but I've never stopped seeing through those eyes the eyes
of a disfigured child... That little guy still lives inside of me."
A time that stands out in Michael's life
is the age of 14, when he had just come through the facial surgery
that would largely shape the face he would wear for the rest of
his life. His doctor for all his surgeries since birth, Dr. Robert
Cowan, stood back and viewed the boy objectively, like a fine sculpture.
"He's really quite handsome, isn't he?" Michael recalls
the doctor saying to his parents. "I believed him. What a lovely
moment."
Now, Michael says the pain he felt as a
child has led to the greatest joy in his life. Through his volunteer
work with AboutFace International, a support net- work for people
with facial differences, Michael developed making faces, an eight-week
improv comedy workshop for kids with facial differences.
"We're not just like any other boys
and girls. I tell that to my kids. They face a very different set
of challenges. We all have wounds or hurts but those with facial
differences have to wear them. These kids are beautiful, creative
little beings, and they have the right to participate and love and
be loved and chase down [their] dreams." The kids interact
with each other and play improvised games tailored to develop eye
contact and improve voice skills, teamwork, self-confidence and
self-expression.
According to Michael, the children pick
up intuitively on improv acting techniques. "They've been observers.
They know what it is like to be on the outside looking in: They
bring a whole fresh perspective to improv or any art form. The next
Margaret Laurence, Robertson Davies or Sir Alec Guinness could come
from these kids, because they have such insight." Michael plans
to bring his making faces workshops to all chapters of About- Face
International and train other facilitators with facial differences
to lead workshops. As well, Michael conducts seminars and workshops
for corporations and healthcare facilities, and he has launched
a career as a public speaker. He uses his own life lessons to teach
others to pursue their dreams. "You put enough barriers around
yourself. You can't allow others to say what you can and can't do."
Michael is also working on the development
of InsideOut, a children's television series, with Toronto production
company The Film Works: In this series, he hopes to help parents
and children deal with the fears and uncertainty of hospital stays.
He recalls a time when he was five years old and his parents drove
him to the hospital, then left him at reception. "They couldn't
break it to me that I had to stay for another surgery."
Michael also hopes that 'the TV series
will help children and parents to share their feelings when dealing
with their physical or mental differences. He reflects on his own
father, whom he describes as looking like David Niven and acting
like Basil Fawlty, "I know my Dad loved me. He used to visit
me every lunch hour from work when I was in the hospital... But
we never had a conversation in my life about my facial disfigurement."
Michael's life has come full circle, from
the boy who felt alone and barely human to the man who feels he
has achieved a spiritual and very human renewal - through his acting,
voice work and most especially his improv work with children with
facial differences.
"I celebrate my past instead of hiding
from it. These kids make me proud of who I am and where I come from.
It's like discovering you have a people. They make me proud of the
little boy I was. Of who I am.
"I want the kids to come out of this
feeling like I do: that each day they wake up, the world is a better
place because they exist."
To book Michael Williams-Stark for a public
speaking engagement, seminar or workshop, contact him at making faces@sympatico.ca or (416) 598-4429. To find out more about making faces, visit www.makingfaces.ca.
Karen Marie Marzocco of Toronto, Ontario,
is the head writer for the Inside- Out television series in development,
along with creators Michael Williams-Stark and Abby Thomas. |